The Mint Needle

I knew when I was ready I would do this. And today, is the day. It was the beginning of May when I found out I have rectal cancer. The good news would come later on when I'd find out that it was Stage 1. This was a huge hurdle.... an idea that I had to overcome. I have cancer. One word : Denial. I never knew how hard this would be to grasp. As a nurse, you think you're invincible. I admit, at times during patient care, I thought this could never be me. Yet, here I was, 4 days before my 38th birthday, getting diagnosed with a 'highly treatable' cancer. Geez.... I didn't want this post to be an "i'm pulling the cancer card" thing but this is MY little space I created on the internet. And something just didn't feel right about not sharing with everyone, the reality of what's going on behind the scenes. Currently I'm undergoing a combination of chemo and radiation. So far the bad days have been manageable but I hear it only gets worse....